What Is This All About?


The smoke screen at first was a defense.
I was surprised when I realized the size of my fence
Getting past some of the walls to see,
There is this whole other part of me.

I was asked some questions one day
Looking back I would have answered a different way
The hardest part was finding the words to say
That best expressed me, and my feelings that day

My intentions were not to hide by any means
Like a glass jar of Birdie Botts Every Flavor Beans
There are many different aspects to me
It takes time to really get to know me

Taking the time to list all the traits I show
With out using emotions is tough you know
It’s ok to be happy, excited, but not sad, upset or sour?
Expressing my emotions is not necessarily loosing my power.
Where in the tenants does it say we have to be honest or positive?
These are things that are different, depending on your perspective.
Which leads to another question asked of me?
Would I betray the great Lady?

Like that of a close dear friend of mine?
How would I know? I am not him.
My friendships with others should not be a concern
For I have dedicated my life to serve, grow, and learn

Betrayal is to act in a way that is contrary to a promise made.
Being conscious of the words that we say and not dismayed
For we are all spiritual beings on a human path
No one is perfect, no disrespect, but you do the math.

Chances are everyone has broken a promise at one time or another
Question is, were they conscious of the effects to the other
Did they know the pain it would cause?
Did they know they were breaking the laws?

Intentionally causing harm upon another?
I doubt that the case if you asked the other
We strayed from the subject I think really mattered
No one was to leave feeling all battered

There will always be drama, problems, and a black sheep within every family
Did you take the time to really get to know me?
If you had, you know I would never hurt anyone on purpose, let alone family!
Isn’t this supposed to be about working together and developing OUR spirituality?

Tanith
~ Dec 2004~